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OOC INFO
⬡ Player Name: Jay1
⬡ Age: 18+
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⬡ Invite: i bless the raaaaains down in aaaafricaaaaaa
⬡ Characters Played: yo mama
IC INFO
⬡ Character Name: Jack Benjain
⬡ Canon: Kings
⬡ Canon Point: Post-Series + CRAU
⬡ Age: 24
⬡ History: Kings Wiki Entry + Jack entry
⬡ CRAU Summary: Entering Duplicity, Jack was near immediately swooped up by Steve and Bucky, and near immediately after, had an emotional breakdown when he had some triggery as fuck shit confirmed by The Bible. Thanks, religion. Steve made a point to play moot dragon at his door, refusing to let Jack cope through self-destruction, but it was more so Bucky's involvement in quiet talks, giving Jack company without prodding, exposing his own vulnerabilities, and gently coaxing Jack into actually allowing himself to feel his grief that had him imprinting on the man like a fucking baby bird. Jack screamed and cried and wailed while Bucky held onto him, and it was legitimately the first time probably the entirety of his life that he was actually allowed to be weak, both by himself and someone else there to comfort. With his identity as prince having been so built on the foundation of being something near divine, strong, powerful, and entirely untouchable, it was a big ask to get him to that point.
After the fact, Bucky and Steve both were consistent and persistent in encouraging this kind of more emotionally honest behavior from Jack, despite a lot of lashing out from him. Their unwillingness to abandon him, or tell him to suck it up, buttercup, was what sunk into him. Jack's incredibly impressionable by nature, especially to those with an admirable kind of nobility (see: David Shepherd), and the two of them have been able to slowly, carefully, feed him the support, affection and reassurance he'd needed to be the better person that he'd wanted to be in canon.
Beyond them, Jack formed some deep and personal bonds with a few others - John Murphy, Eggsy Unwin, Erik Lehnsherr, Will Graham, 616!Bucky Barnes, Rafaello d'Este. He remains very guarded and detached by nature, but Jack's become much more brave in allowing himself to be himself. Coming to a new dimension, with new people, is sure to backtrack that a little, but there's some very solid foundation there now.
⬡ Personality:
BUENO
SOFT, SQUISHY CENTER; { pure(ish) intentions, genuinely caring, sensitive, emotionally delicate, empathetic, altruistic compulsion (his cruelty is learned, not inherent) }
Jack has motivations that he believes are pure: being a good son, proving himself to his parents and the nation, being worthy of the crown, it’s more the execution of those aims that gets him in trouble. With David, the integrity Jack was taught simply isn't possible, his concept of having been ‘as good as is feasible’ starts to shake. Raised by distant and cutthroat parents, he’s fairly affection starved. Once getting past Jack’s initial refusal to buy into genuine, selfless care from others, he soaks it up greedily, like a drug. The initial leaning in him is usually, consistently, towards morally sound ends, but it’s the logic he’s used to applying that talks him out of that morality. Many things his parents are capable of (betrayal, lying, murder, malice), Jack lacks the stomach for.
RESILIENT; { force of will, driven (sometimes obsessive), determined, enduring. }
Willpower is one of the stronger traits Jack possesses and he wields it like a sword against himself. He desperately to believe that if you tell yourself something long enough, eventually it will become true, and it’s an end Jack’s constantly trying to prove. Kings is like Biblical Game of Thrones, and Jack gets dragged through a lot of bullshit, with heavy implications of a deeply twisted upbringing. As weak as Jack may believe himself to be, he’s endured much more than most could do quietly, and cut into himself over and over to attempt to survive. Whether for good or ill, a determined Jack Benjamin is a force to be reckoned with.
CAPABLE; { charming, intellectual, commanding, assertive, strategic, persuasive, clever, intuitive. }
Part of being manipulative means the ability to read the needs and wants of those around you, so it's a bit fucked up, because you have to be empathetic, and then you have to use those soft, sweet things you understand about people to entirely fuck their lives sideways. That's Jack Benjamin. He understands fulfillment and hurts and vulnerabilities, and why they're important. He just disregards the pain he's causing in exploiting those things to his own ends, not for lack of caring, but because he deems it necessary. Rose raised her son to use social graces and charms like a weapon, so combine that with the militant and regal authority being a soldier and a prince gives, and you have someone who leads as easy as breathing. He observes, calculates, plans, and approaches at the angle he deems not only beneficial, but safest for him.
FUCKBOY WANTS 2 BE HERO; { protective (sometimes as an offshoot of possessive), sacrificial (even if ignoble), defiantly solid when morally convicted, idealistic intentions. }
Outside of his parents, the people who have the greatest influence on Jack tend to be those of purely noble will, backed with action - like Joseph, like David, like Michelle. Jack hates that he couldn’t have been the child allowed to run free with the humanitarian nonsense, believing the world is sunshine and good intentions, but when it comes down to it, Jack will throw himself on the line to defend someone he believes is worthy of it, like protecting Michelle from having her pictures aired, and saving David from execution at great personal cost.
ROYALTY; { dignified, regal, proud, graceful, elegant. }
As backhanded as Jack can be, he has real dignity, for all he's trampled on and shoved down. He's aggressive about fighting for and carving out his spot, and has the pride of royalty in him, even as low as he'll sink to get what he feels he needs. Joseph says 'you're too brave to be a coward' about him, and that is true in many aspects. Jack hides his nature because he'll lose kingship and favor otherwise, and Silas has raised him to believe that’s his life's entire purpose, as well as trained the thought that his nature is disgraceful into him. You wouldn’t guess the darker traits in Jack just from watching him glide through a room.
NO BUENO
WAVERING; { conflicted, indecisive, self-deluding, hypocritical, lacking conviction, consumed with fear, inconsistent. }
There's a part of Jack that genuinely wants to lead by David's virtuous example, right alongside a part of him that can have a man shot in cold blood. These parts are not mutually exclusive. Jack is constantly in internal conflict - one scale weighing against another to decide what the outcome will be, and he’s very bad at keeping that scale from tilting wildly. All in all, Jack is consumed by fear - for himself, for his place in life, fear of his father, his pride in him, and will happen if he doesn't satisfy, of the general public and how he looks in their eyes, of himself. Much of who Jack is conflicts what he wants, and what he thinks he needs and what's more important. The painful thing is: we know Jack can and wants to do the right thing, but it's a fight against himself to get to that point. Jack uses self-delusion as protection, to hide from fears he doesn't want to face, and lies to himself as well as he does others, denying the acutely perceptive part of him that knows what he's doing. He's a hypocrite when shoving his guilt off on someone else, and sways easily between things, weak to uncertainty.
EMOTIONALLY POISONOUS; { angry, bitter, regretful, self-loathing, addicted to escapism, desperate, self-destructive, vitriolic. }
Jack carries a devastating emotional pain around, plagued with regret, grief and self-loathing. He tells his sister - "Whatever it is you don't want him to see, or hear, or know. You can bury it so deep you won't find it yourself anymore, but you'll wish you hadn't." Jack's started to lose control of these things - when he chooses to care and when he chooses to be cold, and you see Jack start to unhinge on that breaking point. It’s rendered his control over himself and the world around him tenuous. When control is as vital to the Benjamins as breathing, it’s a problem. Jack’s trying to hold a volcano in by icing it over, and it’s not working.
TORTURED VILLAIN SYNDROME; { dangerously ambitious, something to prove, manipulative, pragmatic, opportunistic, dishonest, envious, prideful, self-pitying, a little bit brainwashed. }
Jack desperately wants to meet and surpass the wealth of expectation put on him. His parents’ approval and pride is held upon him like a threat, carried on into adulthood. The ends will always justify the means, willing to sacrifice most anything to reach something that’s important to him, forcing numbness onto himself to be capable of ruthlessness. He's intimately aware that he's always being watched and he makes a point to show what he wants people to see (lying is like breathing to him). Jack capitalizes on opportunity, building images and controlling a narrative, so he builds himself an entirely new personality to gain advantage and favor, making the country love him. The act of it leaves him feeling gross inside his skin, but accomplished.
STATUE PLAYS HUMAN; { desensitized to cruelty, detached, pessimistic, isolated, dissociated. }
Often cold and willing to get his hands dirty, he's become a little too comfortable with this mindset, finding horrific things to be acceptable losses. He’d likely claim that that level of detachment works well for him, despite being crushingly lonely. Jack exists within the bubble of the royal family, separate and elevated above the rest of the population in his canon, and that isolation’s ingrained now. Not that he’s incapable of forming meaningful relationship with people - like with Joseph and like with David - but he doesn't like to. They make a structural weakness for him and Jack wants to be untouchable.
RICH BOI RUDE; { condescending, selfish, entitled, brutally frank, dismissive. }
Jack walks and talks like he owns every room he comes into and any person he talks to, done in varying shades from roguish to straight-up condescending. He's prideful and judgmental and not worried about letting people know, if he doesn't think their opinion is worth sugarcoating himself for. Promiscuity is like a form of coping for him, even to the point it stops being about sexual satisfaction and takes a turn for intoxication on being admired. Jack takes solace in being admired, and the freedom of frivolity, but it doubles as good defense - just a condemned and carefree tramp, rather than a person in genuine emotional turmoil, and thus, not as untouchable as he’d like to be.
Ole
⬡ Appearance: scarves
⬡ Powers:
Telekinesis; aka i sold my ass to be that dude in legion. Jack traded a night of sex spent with Bad Santa and the making of a sex tape in order to gain 'telekinesis powerful enough to lift a truck, at least.' His control over the ability isn't awesome, and it's largely reactionary with his emotional state, but he's getting there.
⬡ SAMPLES: blehm + mlehm
⬡ Player Name: Jay1
⬡ Age: 18+
⬡ Contact:
⬡ Invite: i bless the raaaaains down in aaaafricaaaaaa
⬡ Characters Played: yo mama
IC INFO
⬡ Character Name: Jack Benjain
⬡ Canon: Kings
⬡ Canon Point: Post-Series + CRAU
⬡ Age: 24
⬡ History: Kings Wiki Entry + Jack entry
⬡ CRAU Summary: Entering Duplicity, Jack was near immediately swooped up by Steve and Bucky, and near immediately after, had an emotional breakdown when he had some triggery as fuck shit confirmed by The Bible. Thanks, religion. Steve made a point to play moot dragon at his door, refusing to let Jack cope through self-destruction, but it was more so Bucky's involvement in quiet talks, giving Jack company without prodding, exposing his own vulnerabilities, and gently coaxing Jack into actually allowing himself to feel his grief that had him imprinting on the man like a fucking baby bird. Jack screamed and cried and wailed while Bucky held onto him, and it was legitimately the first time probably the entirety of his life that he was actually allowed to be weak, both by himself and someone else there to comfort. With his identity as prince having been so built on the foundation of being something near divine, strong, powerful, and entirely untouchable, it was a big ask to get him to that point.
After the fact, Bucky and Steve both were consistent and persistent in encouraging this kind of more emotionally honest behavior from Jack, despite a lot of lashing out from him. Their unwillingness to abandon him, or tell him to suck it up, buttercup, was what sunk into him. Jack's incredibly impressionable by nature, especially to those with an admirable kind of nobility (see: David Shepherd), and the two of them have been able to slowly, carefully, feed him the support, affection and reassurance he'd needed to be the better person that he'd wanted to be in canon.
Beyond them, Jack formed some deep and personal bonds with a few others - John Murphy, Eggsy Unwin, Erik Lehnsherr, Will Graham, 616!Bucky Barnes, Rafaello d'Este. He remains very guarded and detached by nature, but Jack's become much more brave in allowing himself to be himself. Coming to a new dimension, with new people, is sure to backtrack that a little, but there's some very solid foundation there now.
⬡ Personality:
SOFT, SQUISHY CENTER; { pure(ish) intentions, genuinely caring, sensitive, emotionally delicate, empathetic, altruistic compulsion (his cruelty is learned, not inherent) }
Jack has motivations that he believes are pure: being a good son, proving himself to his parents and the nation, being worthy of the crown, it’s more the execution of those aims that gets him in trouble. With David, the integrity Jack was taught simply isn't possible, his concept of having been ‘as good as is feasible’ starts to shake. Raised by distant and cutthroat parents, he’s fairly affection starved. Once getting past Jack’s initial refusal to buy into genuine, selfless care from others, he soaks it up greedily, like a drug. The initial leaning in him is usually, consistently, towards morally sound ends, but it’s the logic he’s used to applying that talks him out of that morality. Many things his parents are capable of (betrayal, lying, murder, malice), Jack lacks the stomach for.
RESILIENT; { force of will, driven (sometimes obsessive), determined, enduring. }
Willpower is one of the stronger traits Jack possesses and he wields it like a sword against himself. He desperately to believe that if you tell yourself something long enough, eventually it will become true, and it’s an end Jack’s constantly trying to prove. Kings is like Biblical Game of Thrones, and Jack gets dragged through a lot of bullshit, with heavy implications of a deeply twisted upbringing. As weak as Jack may believe himself to be, he’s endured much more than most could do quietly, and cut into himself over and over to attempt to survive. Whether for good or ill, a determined Jack Benjamin is a force to be reckoned with.
CAPABLE; { charming, intellectual, commanding, assertive, strategic, persuasive, clever, intuitive. }
Part of being manipulative means the ability to read the needs and wants of those around you, so it's a bit fucked up, because you have to be empathetic, and then you have to use those soft, sweet things you understand about people to entirely fuck their lives sideways. That's Jack Benjamin. He understands fulfillment and hurts and vulnerabilities, and why they're important. He just disregards the pain he's causing in exploiting those things to his own ends, not for lack of caring, but because he deems it necessary. Rose raised her son to use social graces and charms like a weapon, so combine that with the militant and regal authority being a soldier and a prince gives, and you have someone who leads as easy as breathing. He observes, calculates, plans, and approaches at the angle he deems not only beneficial, but safest for him.
FUCKBOY WANTS 2 BE HERO; { protective (sometimes as an offshoot of possessive), sacrificial (even if ignoble), defiantly solid when morally convicted, idealistic intentions. }
Outside of his parents, the people who have the greatest influence on Jack tend to be those of purely noble will, backed with action - like Joseph, like David, like Michelle. Jack hates that he couldn’t have been the child allowed to run free with the humanitarian nonsense, believing the world is sunshine and good intentions, but when it comes down to it, Jack will throw himself on the line to defend someone he believes is worthy of it, like protecting Michelle from having her pictures aired, and saving David from execution at great personal cost.
ROYALTY; { dignified, regal, proud, graceful, elegant. }
As backhanded as Jack can be, he has real dignity, for all he's trampled on and shoved down. He's aggressive about fighting for and carving out his spot, and has the pride of royalty in him, even as low as he'll sink to get what he feels he needs. Joseph says 'you're too brave to be a coward' about him, and that is true in many aspects. Jack hides his nature because he'll lose kingship and favor otherwise, and Silas has raised him to believe that’s his life's entire purpose, as well as trained the thought that his nature is disgraceful into him. You wouldn’t guess the darker traits in Jack just from watching him glide through a room.
WAVERING; { conflicted, indecisive, self-deluding, hypocritical, lacking conviction, consumed with fear, inconsistent. }
There's a part of Jack that genuinely wants to lead by David's virtuous example, right alongside a part of him that can have a man shot in cold blood. These parts are not mutually exclusive. Jack is constantly in internal conflict - one scale weighing against another to decide what the outcome will be, and he’s very bad at keeping that scale from tilting wildly. All in all, Jack is consumed by fear - for himself, for his place in life, fear of his father, his pride in him, and will happen if he doesn't satisfy, of the general public and how he looks in their eyes, of himself. Much of who Jack is conflicts what he wants, and what he thinks he needs and what's more important. The painful thing is: we know Jack can and wants to do the right thing, but it's a fight against himself to get to that point. Jack uses self-delusion as protection, to hide from fears he doesn't want to face, and lies to himself as well as he does others, denying the acutely perceptive part of him that knows what he's doing. He's a hypocrite when shoving his guilt off on someone else, and sways easily between things, weak to uncertainty.
EMOTIONALLY POISONOUS; { angry, bitter, regretful, self-loathing, addicted to escapism, desperate, self-destructive, vitriolic. }
Jack carries a devastating emotional pain around, plagued with regret, grief and self-loathing. He tells his sister - "Whatever it is you don't want him to see, or hear, or know. You can bury it so deep you won't find it yourself anymore, but you'll wish you hadn't." Jack's started to lose control of these things - when he chooses to care and when he chooses to be cold, and you see Jack start to unhinge on that breaking point. It’s rendered his control over himself and the world around him tenuous. When control is as vital to the Benjamins as breathing, it’s a problem. Jack’s trying to hold a volcano in by icing it over, and it’s not working.
TORTURED VILLAIN SYNDROME; { dangerously ambitious, something to prove, manipulative, pragmatic, opportunistic, dishonest, envious, prideful, self-pitying, a little bit brainwashed. }
Jack desperately wants to meet and surpass the wealth of expectation put on him. His parents’ approval and pride is held upon him like a threat, carried on into adulthood. The ends will always justify the means, willing to sacrifice most anything to reach something that’s important to him, forcing numbness onto himself to be capable of ruthlessness. He's intimately aware that he's always being watched and he makes a point to show what he wants people to see (lying is like breathing to him). Jack capitalizes on opportunity, building images and controlling a narrative, so he builds himself an entirely new personality to gain advantage and favor, making the country love him. The act of it leaves him feeling gross inside his skin, but accomplished.
STATUE PLAYS HUMAN; { desensitized to cruelty, detached, pessimistic, isolated, dissociated. }
Often cold and willing to get his hands dirty, he's become a little too comfortable with this mindset, finding horrific things to be acceptable losses. He’d likely claim that that level of detachment works well for him, despite being crushingly lonely. Jack exists within the bubble of the royal family, separate and elevated above the rest of the population in his canon, and that isolation’s ingrained now. Not that he’s incapable of forming meaningful relationship with people - like with Joseph and like with David - but he doesn't like to. They make a structural weakness for him and Jack wants to be untouchable.
RICH BOI RUDE; { condescending, selfish, entitled, brutally frank, dismissive. }
Jack walks and talks like he owns every room he comes into and any person he talks to, done in varying shades from roguish to straight-up condescending. He's prideful and judgmental and not worried about letting people know, if he doesn't think their opinion is worth sugarcoating himself for. Promiscuity is like a form of coping for him, even to the point it stops being about sexual satisfaction and takes a turn for intoxication on being admired. Jack takes solace in being admired, and the freedom of frivolity, but it doubles as good defense - just a condemned and carefree tramp, rather than a person in genuine emotional turmoil, and thus, not as untouchable as he’d like to be.
Ole
⬡ Appearance: scarves
⬡ Powers:
Telekinesis; aka i sold my ass to be that dude in legion. Jack traded a night of sex spent with Bad Santa and the making of a sex tape in order to gain 'telekinesis powerful enough to lift a truck, at least.' His control over the ability isn't awesome, and it's largely reactionary with his emotional state, but he's getting there.
⬡ SAMPLES: blehm + mlehm