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jack "hug me and i will poison you" benjamin ([personal profile] cicatrize) wrote2018-09-23 02:23 pm

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you've reached jack benjamin. clearly, I have better things to do.

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ex_serum683: SHITHOUSE (✪|SEVENTY  NINE.)

[personal profile] ex_serum683 2018-10-28 07:40 am (UTC)(link)
that palm against his back feels... almost better than anything else ever has, or at least steve is so attuned to it that it feels more. he's not really worried about spending another hour up here, not yet, the threat too nebulous for him to feel much concern, but he does want to please jack. he wants jack to keep touching him. it's so overwhelming, to want it so badly and to feel it so much and not know what jack's doing, and steve turns his head into his arm, nudging against it while trying not to twitch too much.

an impossible goal, it turns out, with jack still talking and touching his cock like that. steve can't help the breathy, quiet little grunts being pushed out of him by his own overworking lungs, and his hands fist above his head, then flex, then fist again. fuck, fuck, fuck, he knows jack wouldn't do it but for a second he wants him to, wants to be the toy jack pulls off the shelf when he's feeling lonely. no responsibilities, no wars to fight, nothing to do but please jack and keep himself blank while he waits to be needed — and he would be needed, because jack cares about him. not just a toy, a prized possession.

it's difficult to get the leverage necessary to grind his hips upward, and pointless, too, because there's nothing to grind into, but steve's hips begin working of their own volition and he pants into the skin of his underarm. jack keeps talking, and steve's cock is so hard he almost feels like he's going to come now, without being touched at all — and then jack steps against his side and steve's hips jerk, he pushes himself just a little higher, biting his lip against the moan that threatens to leave him. there are lips on him, slowly making their way down his chest, and when they reach a nipple steve gasps, head dropping hard back against the wall. his cock still works the air, searching for some kind of friction —

it's clear, during that little moment of pause that steve is fine. or, well, turned on beyond belief, so hot and hard his dick's almost flushed purple — but mentally, he's fine. a flush has spread from his cheeks down his chest, his nipples are tight and hard and as red as the rest of him. his lips are wet and swollen from being bitten and licked so much.

he looks wanton. desperate. not quite in subspace, but riding the razor's edge.

jack steps in closer, presses himself against steve, and steve almost sobs with relief, trying to rub his cock against jack's chest — jack takes pity on him, takes him in hand, and steve moans, mouth slack. it's so good, he's so close, it will only take a few strokes — jack sucks at the skin of his ribs and that makes it even less, he's so fucking close he's gonna come, he's gonna come, he's gonna —

jack steps away and this time steve does sob, body tight, held at the precipice for a few moments before it starts to ramp back down. wildly, he almost tears his hands off the nail and just says fuck it... but that would disappoint jack, and much as steve wants to come he wants to please jack more. so he stays, uncomfortably hard and uncomfortably stretched out, panting into the tv-broken quiet.

and then there's the sound of jack's zipper and the quiet, wet sound of jack stroking his own dick, and steve's mouth waters.


I want — ❰ jesus, is that what his voice sounds like? all breathy and far away? ❱ I want to taste. Please.

maybe if he asks nice jack will let him, next commercial break.
ex_serum683: SHITHOUSE (✪|THIRTEEN.)

[personal profile] ex_serum683 2018-10-28 08:54 am (UTC)(link)
steve takes the time between commercial breaks to try to calm himself down, at least enough so that his hard-on doesn't hurt anymore. he's... mostly successful, but it's a difficult proposition when he can hear the way jack's breath hitches and his hand strips his cock. for someone who'd never seen another person's dick in a sexual situation until a couple weeks ago, steve is rapidly finding himself obsessed with them — he wants to be on his knees in front of jack, or stroking him, anything.

so yeah, he's still fucking uncomfortably hard by the time the commercials hit, but he's at least able to breathe normally. his calves and arms are just beginning to feel a hint of strain, but it's nothing he can't ignore. steve waits for jack to come back over, tensing a little in anticipation...

but jack walks away. steve can't see him but he can hear him, can hear his whistling getting further away, and steve groans, thumping his head against the wall behind him. paradoxically, his dick gets a little harder at the abandonment.

when jack begins to return, steve lets out a breath of relief — though that doesn't last long. as soon as jack hears the thump of the dumbbell he tenses, and he almost jumps out of his skin when jack settles first one then the other in the crooks where his arms and neck meet. it's fucking cruel, and rude, and steve just rolls his shoulders slightly to test their lay so he can make sure not to drop them.

fucking hell, jack is good at this. steve's almost entirely underwater by now, only hanging on by the barest amount of irritation and worry he still feels.


You, ❰ is steve's immediate answer, and then the realization that that won't be enough for jack. there's a moment of hesitation, a nervousness that he still hasn't fully been able to evade yet, before he licks his lip and says ❱ Your cock. I want to suck you.
ex_serum683: SHITHOUSE (✪|SIXTY  FIVE.)

[personal profile] ex_serum683 2018-10-28 09:56 am (UTC)(link)
steve g r o a n s, disappointed and frustrated and desperate, but he doesn't say anything. he leans into the sweet little lies of jack's kisses, trying to catch jack's lips and pull him into a deeper kiss, but jack pulls away and steve can't really move all the much anymore. the dumbbells aren't heavy, really, but they're not all that stable either, and too much movement one way or another could send them tumbling off of steve's shoulders.

jack's hand closes around steve's throat and he chokes, tensing to keep from trying to rock his hips. he's swimming, he's almost under, steve can practically feel the fog settling in —

and then jack lets go and steve gasps in a breath, shuddering and still aware, even if only by inches.

maybe it is only bucky. maybe jack can get him close, but bucky's the only one who can really take him down. that'd be okay, steve wouldn't hate that so much — bucky his as much as he is bucky's. they're two halves of one whole, they couldn't do anything that would hurt each other. bucky wouldn't use this against steve ever.

steve's so caught up in his own half-aware thoughts that when jack's hand circles around his dick he jumps, making the dumbbells wobble and his calves finally give the barest bit of a twinge as he has to resettle his muscles in ways that strain the tie and the nail the least and him the most. how the fuck is he supposed to fuck jack's hand like this, without dropping the dumbbells? yeah, yeah, the point, his head, but still. taking a deep breath, steve rolls his hips forward, carefully, less fucking into jack's fist than sliding through it. it takes a moment for him to catch a rhythm that doesn't endanger the tie, or the nail, or the dumbbells, but once he does the motion of his hips gets dirtier, more obscene, as he works himself back up to his peak.

please don't pull away this time, he's been good, he's done everything that's asked of him —

when jack pulls away this time, there are actual tears in steve's eyes.
ex_serum683: SHITHOUSE (✪|TWENTY  SEVEN.)

[personal profile] ex_serum683 2018-10-30 07:51 am (UTC)(link)
maybe he should be ashamed that it's jack's gentle praise that makes him catch his breath again, but steve can't bring himself to feel it right now. it's there, somewhere, abovewater or beyond the fog, but for now it's so far away as to be unimportant, even if he's not quite under yet. jack says he's doing good, jack says just a little more, and steve shudders in acquiescence, drawing strength from the press of jack's lips to his. he still whines, just a little, when jack pulls away to return to the couch, but it's more of a cursory complaint than anything. jack is testing him, he's testing himself, and if he can't handle half an hour of this then... well, he can. that's all there is to it.

again, steve takes the time between commercials to try to recenter himself. it's harder, he really wants to come, he's never been denied like this before, but he tries. he tunes into his body, feels the stretch and the tension of his limbs, the precarious balance of the dumbbells, the aching hardness of his cock. it's been a long time since steve has really checked in with his body like this, and it's a good reminder. proof that no matter how many times he looks in the mirror and sees someone else, this is his body. it's wide and strong and tall in all the ways he never used to be, but it's the body he's used to kiss bucky and jack and peggy and tj, and it's the body he uses to fight for the things he believes in.

it's his body, and he likes it, even when it doesn't always feel like his. he'll have to thank jack for reminding him of that.

the commercials begin, and steve turns his attention outward again, straining to hear jack's movements. there's the quiet shift and swish of fabric, maybe he's getting undressed? his steps stop in front of steve and one by one the weight of the dumbbells is lifted off his shoulders. steve rolls his shoulders, but doesn't have time to appreciate the new freedom before jack gives him an order, one he frowns at but follows with jack's help. it feels... strange, somehow, to be turned to the wall, ass out, but before steve can worry too much about that there's the sound of jack's belt buckle. he is undressing, finally, thank —

the leather of the belt slides over steve's shoulder and encircles his neck and steve just straight up stops breathing, before jack even starts tugging he just stops breathing and falls under.

he's — floating, or he's sinking, or something, he doesn't know. he doesn't need to know. he loses time for a moment or two, static filling his ears and his mind going blank. he comes back to himself just in time to hear jack call him bucky's and steve nods — he is, he's bucky's, jack is helping him right now but it's bucky he belongs to, it's good jack knows that —

the first time jack ruts up against his ass steve gasps and shudders, tries to curl in on himself but he can't do that without pulling down on the nail and he remembers, no tearing the tie, no ripping out the nail. his hands scrabble at the wall, nails dragging through paint, and when jack gets a hand on him he keens, tensing and pushing back and then forward, he can't choose whether to fuck himself back on jack's cock or forward into his hand the result is an uncoordinated, desperate rocking. these noises keep being punched out of him with every thrust, these sharp, wild breathy noises, sex noises, made even dirtier by the belt around his neck and the way he almost gags on them. jack isn't going to fuck him but steve wants him to, moans every time the head of jack's cock batters at his hole. it's so much, it's overwhelming, steve's stopped even trying to keep up with jack and is just standing there for him to use.

his orgasm catches him entirely unawares, choking into his own arm one moment and shaking apart the next. it's the most intense orgasm steve has ever had in his life, almost euphoric from the lack of air, and he whites out for a long moment before he comes back to himself with jack growling in his ear. it takes steve a long moment to follow the command, tremors running through his body and his mind swimming, but as soon as he can process language again he flexes his wrists, snapping the tie. he twists around to face jack and falls to his knees in one smooth motion, sighing deeply in satisfaction — fuck, he loves being on his knees — and reaching to pull jack's briefs out of the way. as soon as jack's cock springs free steve's mouth is on him, sucking him down as far as he can.