[ Truth be told, Jack hasn't been able to speak openly about it at all, ever, until he arrived on Neheda and no one cared. He still doesn't, most of the time, but the conversation... lent to it. And of the people here, d'Artagnan is one he respects more than others. Read: at all.
Still, Jack's tensing regardless, a reaction from something like a decade worth of hearing things and getting looks that make him want to choke on his own self-loathing, while simultaneously choking the ones giving him said looks. It's knee jerk, and his hands are tightening a little on the steering wheel as he's driving them back towards base camp. ]
Rebellious? [ A snort. ] If that's what you want to call it.
[ And that word alone has his shoulders tensing, spine straightening, waiting for the point that d'Artagnan decides this quest to get to know his Biblical hero isn't what he thought it was. With the path ahead of him as flat snow and nothing more, he turns his head to look directly at the other, speaking flatly if not a little aggressively. ] I prefer to sleep exclusively with men. If that changes something for you, you're welcome to walk back.
[ He reads Jack's body language more than anything else. The tension in his shoulders, the way he sits up, like he's ready to defend himself.
It would be illegal, where d'Artagnan's from. But that doesn't mean men don't sleep with men. Of course they do; they're just quiet about it. They don't announce it, and if it's spoken of at all, it's a delicate subject. It's not one that anyone is raised to be comfortable with.
But that doesn't matter. Jack matters. D'Artagnan wouldn't throw him out just for wanting someone who wasn't a woman. He'd like to think he wouldn't treat anyone poorly for that. His own shoulders relax, and he leans his head back against the seat. ]
Why would it? You're my friend, I don't care who you prefer to have in your bed. Unless it's someone who hurts you, or wrongs you.
[ He pauses, before glancing at him again. ]
It's just that I've seen you with women. Hanna, especially. I thought there was something there. Obviously not.
Or no offers at all. Not everyone gets their contract with full disclosure.
[ Several here, the more morally righteous, were brought in under the 'just get a yes out of them' method. Doesn't matter what it's in response to. Those are the ones, Jack has noticed, that cause more issue for the crew than any others. Too busy complaining about the ethics of it to just deal with the reality of the situation and make themselves useful. Dead weight.
As much as he'd been appalled by Dagger's kill list before, Jack's really starting to see the value of the philosophy. Those that weigh them down endanger the crew, and the crew does not need them.
Erik, it seems, is aware enough of the deal offered, so hopefully he chose to be here himself. ]
What'd they promise you? [ personal, yes, but Jack's not really one for small talk. ]
Re: From here: http://codecrew.dreamwidth.org/3869.html?thread=10781213#cmt10781213
[ I'm actually not sure if there can be a renewed contract with a second item after the first item is fulfilled, which is the assumption I'm operating under, but if not I'm recanting this tag-- ]
--It's not your business, but my mother.
I caused her death, so I want her back.
[ And because he feels like he just stuck a knife in his heart, he feels compelled to ask the same. ]
What about you?
[ He is flattered, at least, to be considered difficult enough to have to bribe into service instead of accepting it. He wonders if his price is paid for on the backs of the others who have asked for naught.
Every minute he wonders if this is a mistake, but then he remembers what they promised. ]
You never know. [ He shrugs, watching her take a sip and chuckling a little when it's obviously not her cup of tea. ] You might get drunk enough to think it did.
[ He's reaching forward, though, moving to snag the glass from her. ] Let me fix it. [ gurl you need to learn how to mix drinks if you're going to be a wuss about it. ]
So if it decides to predict the future, do I agree? Like what if it tells me that jumping from something super tall is a good idea? Or piercings. What if it tells me to get piercings?
[ He takes her drink and she lets him, the little furrow growing between her brows. ] What are you doing?
[ He makes a contemplating face for a moment, studying the ceiling above him. ]
I'd imagine it'd work a lot worse here than it does on others' homeworlds.
[ considering Dagger's not about to go around collecting votes on what the next red mission should be, or if he should even be in charge. ]
Ah. Right. I think they're convinced they're doing something noble, rationalizing away the fact that they're hurting this crew more than helping it. [ That's really the thing that bother him the most. As much as Jack was a prince, he didn't feel really comfortable until he was out of the palace and in the military. In a platoon or a squad or a team, you support each other, cover weaknesses. If one fucks up, that weakens the whole. It rises a condescending kind of disgust in him when he sees the others here forcing the rest to lag. ] With any luck, they'll piss off Dagger or Gliese enough that we won't have to deal with them anymore.
It'd depend where you came from, I guess. In the line of career I was in, democracy wasn't really a big thing there either. If you had enough money or power, you could do pretty much anything. [The people with the money was those who could even hire assassins for side jobs in the first place; the people with power were the ones who could somehow run associations of assassins and not get killed right away.]
Yeah, it really gives the rest of us a bad name. If even just a couple of people fuck up, it could cause a lot more trouble for the rest of us. [She wasn't here for any noble cause -- unless you could consider vengeance for your father honorable enough -- but even she saw fallacies in how some of the people conducted themselves around here. In the end, they were only trying to sate their own uncultured mindset. Even as a lone wolf type, the ignorance irritated the shit out of Shinobu.
She mildly smiles as Jack's suggestion -- contrary to her love for violence, she'd rather see people succeed, but some people just never learned.]
Well, they already threw someone into a mountain and cut off a bunch of people's living systems. Pretty sure the next person who pisses either of them off is gonna be even more sorry than the previous troublemakers.
[ Not that he's a big fan of it. He'd personally rather steal, but he's not about to talk about it. The carving eventually comes free, and Jack's pushing the crashtec unit to stand again, carving carefully in had. ]
[ It comes out quietly, but Jack's not going to expand on it any more right now. It isn't the time or place to hash out the moral complications of it. ]
Pay attention, I'm going through this fast. [ Jack takes the pistol from her hands, pointing out features as he speaks. ]
Safety - flip it this way, it's on and the gun won't fire no matter what you do. Flip it the other, and it's clear to fire. For now, keep it off, but keep the barrel pointed at the ground until you're going to shoot something. [ He doesn't want her forgetting to turn the safety off if she needs it here. She'll learn gun safety later. ] Trigger - just squeeze it gently, you don't need to muscle it. It'll recoil - don't lock your elbows. Just let it.
[ they don't have time to talk about proper firing posture either, but he can't have her blowing out her joints right now.
He bends enough to put hands on her shoulders here, lowering his head to meet her eyes while speaking slowly, purposefully. ]
If something or someone is coming after you, I want you to fire as many times as you need, until they stop moving.
[ it's hard enough to wrap her head around the idea that they're supposed to be destroying things -- michelle's not quite sure on the what, cosmic could mean anything, but there is no room to misinterpret demolition -- but the fact that jack wants her to handle a gun? michelle stares dumbly at it, barely taking in what her brother is saying. he expects her to - to shoot something? how could he even ask her to, she's not built like him, she could never --
but this isn't home. she's been dropped into some kind of war zone, and there are things around that would kill her if given the chance. jack can't watch her all the time, she has to be able to defend herself. slowly, she reaches for the gun, taking it from jack with a hand that she refuses to allow to tremble. it's heavy, heavier than she would have thought a gun would be, and she flips off the safety like jack showed her, pointing the barrel toward the ground. she remembers seeing people holding guns in shows and movies -- her index finger rests along the line of the gun, rather than on the trigger, so she doesn't accidentally fire if she's simply startled or she stumbles.
when she looks back up at jack, her expression is torn somewhere between terrified and determined. ]
I don't know if I can shoot anything, but... I'll try.
You can't. [ He near whispers, brow drawn and lips reddened where they are pressed together. He's honestly scared, right now. They brought his sister here with him, and he can't help but think it was because of him. Had he done something wrong? Is this meant to be punishment? He'd been loyal to the CDC already, why bring in collateral? He swallows, squeezing her hands back. ] We don't have a choice.
[ Trying to make demands otherwise would just assure that they'd never see each other again. Their only hope in seeing each other is either bring Michelle to the Neheda, or quietly obey and worm their way into the instructors' good graces to manage a transfer. ]
Just remember what I told you. Keep your head down, do what you're told, and the second you get an option to transfer, get to the Neheda. [ Jack moves up from the crouch in front of her, to sit next to her on the bench, and arm going around her shoulders and tugging her into his side, words muttered softly. ]
I'll try to figure out where they put you, from my end. Until then, I need you to stay strong. I know you can.
[ it's difficult, in many ways the hardest thing she's ever had to do, but michelle keeps herself from crying. she's a princess, after all -- if she didn't know how to reign in her emotions by now the whole country could have fallen into ruin, to hear their mother tell it. she doesn't even have to bite her lip or close her eyes to stem the tide of tears, she just takes a couple deep breaths, leans into jack, and slowly but surely quiets the panic raging through her body. after only a few seconds she wipes delicately at her eyes and curls against jack's side, no evidence that she was ever close to tears left. ]
Get to the Neheda. I can do that.
[ and if she can't, she'll do her best to make jack proud anyway. she has no doubt that even if they don't end up on the same team whoever is in charge of her will be able to threaten jack just as seriously as mothership had. but that does beg the question... ]
What will you do? She threatened you, Jack.
[ that's what will keep michelle awake and terrified at night, not her own fate. she may not be her brother, but she's grown up a princess, with rose benjamin as her mother. she knows how to play a part, even if the parts she's had to play so far have been small. lying doesn't come as naturally to her as it does to jack, but when it counts... when it counts, she can lie with the best of them.
One part of the battlefield as giant aliens and 60 meter tall robots with plasma cannons. The side you're supposed to be staying on doesn't.
[ Yes, they're all at war, but one side of the war is decidely more safe than the other - the side that those they need to keep alive for the wellbeing of the rest of the crew are supposed to stay on. Adrien's not any medic, he's a fucking valuable medic, and they have no room to be losing him in a place like that. Whether he likes it or not, healing broken bones with a touch is incredible. They need that.
Jack's eyes squint at the injection oddly - he'd told him he didn't need one, and while, okay, maybe that's an exagerration (he did get at least a little banged up), Jack's never really been that big of a fan of being under a syringe.
Still, he forces his eyes away from it when Adrien coughs up his apology, lips quirking up into a smile. ]
I'll take it.
[ And not bug him any more on the topic. He knows he's taking a lot of his unease out on Adrien, but he also knows now that Adrien realizes he needs to keep himself safe, despite how annoying that is to him. That's good. ]
At the talk of battlefields and positions upon it, Adrien looked at the other man's face, studying blue eyes for a long moment before he glanced away and got to the task of the injection. He couldn't say anything to what Jack implied because he knew that it wasn't as straight forward as his lieutenant wanted to make it.
He also knew that right now was not the time to discuss such things with the man. Not when Jack was already on edge, clinging to a kite of emotions caught in a hurricane of unknowns.
Funny how, when boiled down, as capable as Jack was on the battlefield, the man needed protecting from himself. It would be easier if Adrien could just shoot the threats and be done with it but it wouldn't be Jack Benjamin if it was easy.
For now, he simply nodded in response and applied the injection. ]
[ The look is countered with a look that replies 'shut up and take your ego stroke you beautiful piece of eye candy'. There really aren't a lot of people Jack goes out of his way to compliment if he's not getting anything out of it, so appreciate the fact you're one of them. ]
If you can convince Gliese or Mothership to ship one in for you.
[ Dipping his head some, Jack smiles in the impish kind of way that has his teeth scraping at his lower lip, almost like a snicker. ]
[ comments as he's arranging all his belongs he's brought over from his old rover, not incredibly concerned about Topher hovering around a few inches from him. topher is one of the few he doesn't actually mind having in his space. maybe something to do with having to snuggle up to him in a tree for a while.
straightening up, Jack leans to the side, head resting on the side of the edge of Topher's bunk, hanging out in those couple inches of space because maybe now he's trying to be creepy. ]
We did. Why? You want to be rewarded with her hand in marriage?
Ah, that would depend on her views regarding Hebbian plasticity.
[ Tomorrow, Jack, this semi-gay chicken would get a reaction. Today, Topher's face just squishes up a little weirdly as he tries to keep Jack's face in focus, with the slow red appearing in his cheeks from hanging upside down alone. He spends way too much time inside. This whole adventure has drained both all his energy and capacity for caring enough to be concerned. ]
But even if it doesn't work out between us, the near welcome to the family is almost touching.
[ while erik's moving the crates, jack's making certain to cover him, keeping up fire with the plasma rifle until the boxes are down, and then he's seeking out a steady place to crouch and stabilize, pulling the scoped rifle up over his shoulder.
he'd done plenty of work as a sniper in his time in service, and nothing really feels more comfortable in his hands as that rifle, so that's what he takes to, picking Shai out of the sky with bullets lodged into vitals. ]
You've got your own for Neheda now. Don't need mine.
[ As far as he knows it's probably lost in paperwork somewhere. But in either case, he needs to train with the plasma shooter, and in the case that the EM fields fluctuate, he'll need to learn how to actually do that. The sniping thing. Maybe some general shooting things. ]
[ after making it back from the drop point, all covered in alien bug and grossness that comes from a battlefield, jack's ploping right down by the bonfire, not paying much attention to who's next to him, or the fact the older guy is one of the new recruits.
typically, jack will skim over the new files, get an idea of who's around and which ones are either useful or should be avoided. he'll get to it later, once this shitstorm is totally died down. for now, he's sipping at his milkshake, flopping back on the powdery snow behind him. a grunt comes in reply to the comment the man made, not bothering to glance over. ]
Well, we're not getting vomitted on anymore, and there's body parts falling from the sky, so, aside from the giant wormhole still hanging around, it's alright.
If you say so. [ spoken in that patient, psychiatrist kind of tone. if he had a notepad, he might have added 'hm' and wrote something down just for the sake of being condescending. it's a talent. he's honestly really not offended about this attitude taken - plenty of people in crew tend to be gratingly unpleasant. fucking with him is more just for entertainment value. his brow gets raise at the fist gesture, wow, lets get a little more passionate about it, why don't we.
seeming like he's considering the question, he sips noisly at the straw in his milkshake, looking at nothing somewhere upwards and to the left. hm hm hm. ] Not particularly, but if you're looking for critique - your pouting is pathetic, your defensiveness is obnoxious, you act like your goal is to make an enemy out of everyone in this camp, which will both get you killed and distract the larger crew from getting their jobs done, and you have poor taste in shoes. [ noisey siiiiiiiiip. ]
[ the fact that the other was proficient in riling him doesn't go undetected. moreover, the unprecedented fashion in which it serves to piss him off in seconds flat was actually impressive, even to him. though, he never did well with pretentious or pompous. arrogance too to some degree. or maybe, most of all, it was the fact that the other had effectively gave no fucks about the timing or the feelings he would likely elicit from doing this so soon after an emotionally (and to some degree, physically and spiritually) exhausting endeavor. not that he knew the precise terms of what ichigo was going through... he seemed observant enough.
obnoxiously so. his eye nearly twitches at the next set of words. ] I wasn't asking for a critique!? But—
Then what about you, smartass?! [ ... he suddenly grows silent, his eyes beginning to scan and scrutinize the stranger's figure. okay, he hasn't got much to work with. but, well, he raises his voice, regardless. ] You think you're so great, but you aren't much better.
I mean, seems like you'd have no trouble making enemies, either. [ ... ] Not that I—
[we're sorry, charming ugu looks don't work on creatures like Baku. She just raises her eyebrows at the "dear", though she knows he's teasing. Or trying that charming thing humans do. Whichever]
I would've been in the way, I think. Or just standing there. [she shrugs, unbothered] How did it go?
I'll keep it in mind next time I need a food runner.
[ don't offer him things like this, baku, he will abuse it. as she makes her way over, he scouts over to make room for her, bringing up a map of the region first. from what he's heard, there's nothing geologically the same between his world and most versions of earth here. ]
This is the region, a good part of Judah - in the middle is Gilboa, my country, and the capital is Shiloh. Right here. [ pointing. ] Above, there's Gath, and we've been at war with them for about two years. Some before that. The region is pretty much always in some kind of conflict.
[she knows what it means, but she can't help but be a little bit of a smartass. She climbs up onto his bunk when he scoots over, sitting crosslegged and leaning over as he brings up the map. She tilts her head, not recognizing it]
It doesn't look familiar at all. [which was obvious, but]
[ Adrien was about to snark back when he caught sight of what he liked to call Jack's 'bitch plz' face. When the younger man decided to drop the matter, Adrien let it go as well.
He wasn't going to take the nanite shot yet, not when there were injuries to see too and the very real concern of just how many nanites they were burning through. At the same time, he wasn't going to rub the state of his injury in Jack's face, either. He knew, from personal experience with Jack, how frustrating it could be to see someone being stupid. ]
Done, go.
[ He said, instead, waving the tablet in his good hand towards the tent flap. ]
[ he doesn't mind the lack of last name, just as long as he has something to yell at the guy if he needs his attention. he's mostly involved with leading the two of them back towards where the ETs are touching down, but tosses back an answer, despite not actually looking at him. ]
With drops? Usually. [ granted, not this bad. not in the middle of a colony with gravity going batshit and the camp under attack as well. ] The idea is you survive it, you earn making it to camp, and onto the crew. The first of us didn't have senior recruits coming to fetch us.
[ jfc, he cannot eyeroll hard enough, so he's just giving him the most dead look ever, possibly with a groan of omfg why did i bother pulling you down at all.
still, jack's digging the flares out of his pack and handing them over to chief, watching him curiously to see what he's up to.
the explanation has him raising his brows, mildly impressed, but a little doubtful. ]
And if the incoming ETs think we moved the load up point?
[there is only one eyeroll master, and that's the master chief. one day, he might take you under his spartan wing to show you.]
Hopefully the piles of dead shai will tell them otherwise.
[which means there's going to be a lot of combat. also, the chief is also a little too eager to get to it. it means that he can slide into a familiar role; protect, continue the mission and eliminate all threats.]
[That just makes him all the more inclined to not let go until he's damn well good and ready! Eventually, Jack gets his arm back.]
Well that's bullshit. And a note? [His gun is suddenly out and pressing itself right against the guy's ribs even as he leans in again, deliberately puncturing that neat little bubble of personal space.]
Don't read that in front of me again. Or, you know what? Do. Please.
[ It's still a surprise, to get such an enthusiastic embrace from his sister, the kind of thing they never did back home. Not anymore, at least, not since they were very, very young. But she's terrified, and exhausted, and apparently doesn't even mind all the grime Jack's armor is covered in. For the moment, on the adrenaline high and relieved beyond words, Jack wraps the arm not busy holding onto the plase rifle around her back, squeezing her tight. A laugh, even coming at her complaint. ]
A car and a six hour drive into enemy territory, while your wormhole bridge had physics going haywire on the way.
[ not like he stopped to smell the flowers, okay, he was working on it. his head raises up to David, looking over how wrecked he is as well, and there's a tight kind of smile that isn't so directly sent to him, eyes on his equipment, or on the area around him, but is still there. he's grateful. ]
I didn't think they'd drop you directly into a colony.
[ With a wry huff, and then he's letting Michelle go, and giving a sharp whistle to call Ringo away from the Shai he's dragging around like a stuffed toy from the pet shop. Drop that, we're moving on. ] Ready to move again?
[ it's true, they haven't hugged like this is a very long time -- aside from on lusania, their last hug was probably before they hit puberty, and even that was probably more perfunctory than an actual hug. that's never really been michelle's choice, though -- she's an affectionate person and would have happily carried on hugging jack if he'd let her. somewhere along the way, though, he had begun to push her away, both physically and emotionally, until she didn't even bother to try and initiate any kind of contact. the only reason she has recently is because she needs it, needs the reassurance of someone's arms around her. that jack has accepted the hugs without complaint is just encouragement.
making him laugh feels almost like winning the lottery, after the way she's been nothing but a burden this whole time, and despite everything she finds it in herself to give him a smile and mean it, pleased with herself. ]
It's not my wormhole bridge, it gave us as much trouble as it did you. I have bruises!
[ michelle's happy to keep holding onto jack without letting go for as long as he'll let her, but when he pulls away she doesn't protest, just raises a hand to run over the back of her neck while she watches the cat-thing warily. hanna's had been nice -- and looked very much like this one, maybe it was the same? -- but that doesn't mean the things aren't scary. when he asks if they're ready to go, she looks back at david, eyebrows raised in a question. ]
[ jack's brow is knit when his head jerks up at dirk's voice, squinting at him up there for a moment with a frown, before he just sighs and rolls his eyes. he's sort of stopped being impressed by magic powers here, and dirk was supposed to be one of those super-kids as far as his friend Roxy talked about. of course he can fly. why not? ]
I've got people I'm meeting up with. [ Michelle and David. ] The others are still on mission.
[ he wasn't about to drag them off for this. he can handle finding them on his own. ]
[Yeah yeah, he wasn't trying to impress you (sort of...), just gonna ignore the eye roll and float a bit lower. He'd get on the ground with you, but there aren't a ton of people in this crew who can fly and a lot more vomiting Shai who can. Aerial support is what he's been providing, more or less.]
Oh. Cool. [His sister, he figures. Though he doesn't know about David.
And that's it. He doesn't say anything else, but doesn't leave either.]
I don't see why they wouldn't. It's still tacky, even in space.
[ srsly, did you not see dagger streaking on Lusania? it was p tacky. but at least he had shoes. and since erik is going to get off his put and pay, jack will retract his threat of doing it for him. ]
Enough. It's rude to ask how much a person makes.
[ said in the kind of careless tone that suggests he doesn't know the definition of rude. ]
[ Well Erik sure as hell wasn't gonna let Jack pay for his shoes if he doesn't have a lot of money left in the bank, but he's gonna assume Jack is a high roller since those bags look Gucci. ]
What's next on your itinerary, after the shopping?
[ And buying more shoes than they can reasonably store? ]
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